Generational Energy

I have been practicing qi-gong for over four years now. My master is Chunyi-Lin who created the Spring Forest form of qi-gong. He is located here in Minnesota. I feel such gratitude for his teachings.

There is a  meditation we do which is called "Small Universe". This meditation is preceded by a silently recited affirmation-"I am in the universe, the universe is in my body, the universe and I combine together." We then concentrate on a point called the lower dan-tien, a major energy center in the body. This point is found behind the navel. [As the umbilical cord sustains us as we develop in the womb, we continue receiving energy through this point from the universe. I like that image, Mom as universe, universe as Mom.] Master Lin then suggests we visualize our "generational" energy and our own energy joining together in the lower dan-tien-shining brightly. During the meditation we add to that energy on the in-breath both the master's energy and universal energy. We move from point to point in a circle that moves along the front and the back of the body, breathing into the various energy centers.
Breathing in universal energy, and releasing any funky energy we'd just as soon see released.

I like to think of this small universe as just that. Here we are, a microcosm of the macro.  Our breath   sustaining the" planets" which are our energy centers. Strengthening our own "small universe" strengthens nothing less than the  "big" universe. No small task, and yet an infinitesimal task. And if we practice long enough, this can happen on every breath we take. Beauty in the simplicity of the breaths we take (and give).

At a certain point in time, and only recently,  this concept of "generational energy" began taking on a new, deeper meaning.  I almost just skipped over hearing that reference for the longest time.It didn't really mean much to me. I thought  that I had moved beyond my anger and sadness surrounding both my parents, and thought (hoped?) that was enough.

 It obviously was not.

To even begin to think that I could receive something from my ancestors was such a foreign thought to me. After all,  my parents were angry, sick, depressed folks.What would I possibly want to receive from them? And generations before that? I can only go back in my own life to the grand-parents. Paternal grandparents were dead before I was born.
I know I am named after my father's father-in Hungarian- Ferenc.
But there was no emotional connection to that. It was simply an interesting fact that explained the choice of my name, Fern.
My maternal grandmother died when I was five. I loved her, but she died before I  understood the concept of loss.My maternal grandfather was a hard-working man whose death from stomach cancer propelled me into natural foods. But that's another story.

I have no knowledge of any generations further back.

As any well-raised Jew, I was taught-well I just learned how to say this in Hungarian this morning- "Az élet nehéz"-Life is hard.

But after years of calling on generational energy in the practice of small universe, without seemingly even working at it, I realized, felt, began receiving this generational energy. The ancestors  joining me, not only during this practice, but  as I continue on this life journey. And they have put down the burden they carried of "Az élet nehéz". That's one of the gifts of leaving the physical body and returning to Source.

From these folks, on the astral plane, I receive not just support but encouragement to heal.
For me, for them. From me, these folks receive my own healing. I truly imagine, feel the effect I am having on them as much as they are having on me.

Then there is the gift of being able to lay down the burden while still on the physical plane.

One night recently as I was falling asleep, I felt  the love I have for my parents as well as the love they both have for me. Words can not describe the depth of that feeling.

I also figured out this morning how to say in Hungarian "Az élet szép" Life is beautiful.